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January 1, 2011
I want to shut of my eyes, but how can I? I promised myself to write everything under the sun prior to this day. But promises are meant to be broken…
What a year to end. And what year to start? Another life to be bored about.
I don’t know what I want. I want less complications. But not without one.
In short, I just want to be a normal person.
In retrospect, there are some things that was learnt. And to look back, all I can say is that I became the person that I wouldn’t want. I dare to be untidy, unorganized and laid back. It does good and bad at the same time.
In God’s time, I will experience how it is to be normal. How I feels to be free.
What a year to end. And what year to start? Another life to be bored about.
I don’t know what I want. I want less complications. But not without one.
In short, I just want to be a normal person.
In retrospect, there are some things that was learnt. And to look back, all I can say is that I became the person that I wouldn’t want. I dare to be untidy, unorganized and laid back. It does good and bad at the same time.
In God’s time, I will experience how it is to be normal. How I feels to be free.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
April 6 is my deathday.
I felt extreme sadness and I dont know why. What is on April 5? It seems to be an ordinary day. With list of to do activities, presumption of lates and disappointments. Yup, I am a bad student driver. Literally and probably figuratively. Worst, after 3 years, an unexpected enuresis recurrs. And the gloom persisted until I woke up.
4AM. Usually, this is the time I sleep. (I dont know why, but I'm kept awake until the wee hours of the morning.) But today, its my waking time.
Then I remembered. According to my dream exactly a year ago, today is my death day.
On what year, that I do not know.
But for sure, I don't think it is this year.
I just know.
4AM. Usually, this is the time I sleep. (I dont know why, but I'm kept awake until the wee hours of the morning.) But today, its my waking time.
Then I remembered. According to my dream exactly a year ago, today is my death day.
On what year, that I do not know.
But for sure, I don't think it is this year.
I just know.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
I want someone whom I can call my own (and not someone else's).
Even I tell myself that this "kahibangan" is all over, i think its not. From time to time, in a bad way to start the day by openning my social account, i can feel pain. The enviness of not being in that place. The enviness and sadness why I dont have it. Am I not deserving? Or maybe God has something better for me?
I just think it that way. I'll have someone better.
I just hope sooner. But for now, I hate the feeling of bitterness.
Even I tell myself that this "kahibangan" is all over, i think its not. From time to time, in a bad way to start the day by openning my social account, i can feel pain. The enviness of not being in that place. The enviness and sadness why I dont have it. Am I not deserving? Or maybe God has something better for me?
I just think it that way. I'll have someone better.
I just hope sooner. But for now, I hate the feeling of bitterness.
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Hello
We have nothing to say to each other
except the word hello.
(You greeted me with hello and I replied with hi.
Isn't it that the hi should come first before the hello?)
except the word hello.
(You greeted me with hello and I replied with hi.
Isn't it that the hi should come first before the hello?)
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
I won the battle through faith.
I won the battle through faith
Glory to the highest!
Time to leave the love behind.
Glory to the highest!
Time to leave the love behind.
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